I have been absent for quite some time on this page, and I apologize for that. There has been quite a lot going on in my personal life between my grandma passing, my relationship ending, and family struggles.
I was compelled today to jump on and write a little passage from the heart, of what I have been feeling the last few months to a year.
My hopes is that this passage reaches even one person, and eases their pains, and in place fills them with hope and empowerment.
I am titling the passage “It is Ok, Not to Be Ok”, because throughout my struggles I have kept my head held high and my hurt inside. I felt like if wasn’t ok to show that I wasn’t ok.
I am here today after so many trials and tribulations to tell you that it is indeed ok, not to be ok.
Sometimes in the hardest time just coming to terms with your hurt will be a push enough to actually face your fears and truly be ok.
I am not saying to crawl in a hole and to use not being ok as an excuse. Actually quite the opposite, rather lift your head each day and go on with your life, but if you need to break down and cry, then break down and cry. It is ok to not be strong all the time.
Have I perfected this yet? Absolutely not! But my goal is to give up the hardass exterior and just face the hurt and heal from it. Instead of bottling everything inside and not ever asking for help. One of the biggest changes in my life since facing these new hardships is to once and for all truly ask God for help.
Whether that is to kneel down and pray to yourself, or to speak it aloud. Just hand it all over to him, because God see’s you and hears you and will help you through the points in life that aren’t “ok”.
Does this make you a cry baby or crazy, no, quite the opposite. This makes you stronger each and everyday. Face your fears, be bold, and most importantly don’t give up.
Life may not always be “ok” but thats ok. Those hard times that you get through, one step at a time, one day at a time will make you stronger.
To conclude, I am here to tell you that you don’t have to always be ok. There is beauty in chaos, because when you fall down, you will rise again and you will be unstoppable. And you will rise again!
— Nehemiah 8:10 Do not grieve, for the joy of the Lord is your strength.
I want to end with a very important quote from Winston Churchill
“The pessimist sees difficulty in every opportunity. The optimist sees opportunity in every difficulty.” – Winston Churchill